Day 15 - Anger Detoxing and Deconstructing
Took 2 long walks. Got to ride a train ( el ) which I did the sitting meditation. I did the Qigong and angel work.
At night, some people had moved stuff on me, and I got real angry. Feeling of trapped and no respect. There is alot of frustration over this, I know the real real reason was that I felt like I had no control. Its the sensation of the walls closing in, and people giving you no space to recover.
Its been a rough couple days with this. One fight, then another.
In all seriousness, I really miss the meditative train rides. Writing the blog posts a day or later removes much of the viciousness of the experience, so it less raw after a day.
A sure sign, the banishing and Qigong is working as is the banishing rituals.